14.Between concreteness and magic
Ever since I was a little girl, I have always been in the middle: on the one hand concrete, rational, always looking for utility; on the other hand, dreamer, searching for the meaning of life, convinced that after satisfying the basic needs-the ones Maslow put at the base of his pyramid-there was something else, something more hidden, pressing to emerge.
So in my first home, Romania, I felt the allure of "magic": that hidden side of things that reveals itself when you are quiet or perhaps tired after a day's work, when you have already brought home the results your family needs.
The religion in which I grew up - Orthodox Christianity - gave me an early contact with mystery. The monasteries, the stories of the monks and nuns fascinated me deeply. And this aspect taught me to never stop searching: not even in spirituality. The answers of others were not enough for me. I felt driven to find the answers within myself, while taking valuable insights along the way.
I grew up this way, between concreteness and a touch of magic. Two forces that sustained me, but sometimes made life difficult: because, if not harmonized, they risk confusion. There have been times when I have been unbalanced - too immersed in materiality and concrete work, or conversely, too lost in the world of spirit. Both paths, taken alone, made me feel incomplete.
And so I started looking for those who, before me, had been able to combine these two aspects. I found tools, answers, but most of all satisfaction. I learned to accept both parts of me: the exoteric and the esoteric, what is outside and what is inside. Both indispensable to feeling whole.
Charles W. Leadbeater, in his book The Hidden Side of Things, writes:
"There is no object so mundane that it does not have its deeper correspondence; the visible is but the veil of the invisible."
And it was precisely this that struck me: the discovery that behind every everyday gesture may lie a symbol, a reminder, a larger meaning.
Over time, I began to define myself as "spiritually concrete"-like the podcast of a coach who has been instrumental for me, Antonella Giordano, the first to support me on a beautiful path.
When you learn to look at things from different perspectives, a fact no longer remains just a fact. It also becomes what it means to you, what moves you inside, what calls up memories and wounds from your personal history. We don't all react the same way in the face of what happens to us; everyone experiences an event through their own web of symbols and memories.
And that is precisely where life is colored. When questions surface-or someone helps you surface them-then awareness grows, and everything becomes magical even in the concreteness of the everyday.
So I discovered symbolic language, esotericism, and with them everything changed.
To be continued...
Sources of inspiration
C.W Leadbeater :The hidden side of things
Podcast and Coach Antonella Giordano :Spiritually Concrete
